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[Feb. 21st, 2006|12:24 am] |
You know what is hard: Making a Cow Costume.
Discuss. |
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[Feb. 13th, 2006|11:26 pm] |
IT IS VALENTINE'S DAY GIVE ME HUGS AND CANDY!
AND KISSES!
Yeah...
Happy Valentine's day to you and yours!
<3 Matt(y) |
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[Feb. 3rd, 2006|12:38 am] |
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Word of the Month: LOLLER!
Credited to Eddie.
I have been working on my goal, and I have talked to Liz and Megan and I called Bronwen, Laura, John, Catherine, Big Josh, and I am gonna call more, I sware! I am gonna give myself a pat on the back for now, but I still have work to DO! |
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[Feb. 1st, 2006|05:47 pm] |
New Years Resolution:
Reconnect with all the good friends I have seemed to let slip through my fingers.
Or something like that.
4 Months left... |
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[Dec. 4th, 2005|06:59 pm] |
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Thanks Dottie. You are easily the most wonderful friend ever. |
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[Dec. 4th, 2005|02:37 pm] |
*sigh*
from above
they say temptation will destroy our love
I'll never let that happen
but I fear
I have nothing to give
I have so much to lose
here in this lonely place
tangled up in our embrace
there's nothing I'd like
better than to fall
but I fear
I have nothing to give
I have so much to lose
I have nothing to give
We have so much to lose...
I just want to be lost
In a crowded room
So I don't have to hear
Your point of view
You know I don't care
About what you say
And it's the way
You say it, too
So why did you come to me
When you knew that you just didn't believe
What did you expect to get from telling me
You don't understand
Anything or how I am
I just want to be loved
I just want to be loved by you
I want to be loved
I just want to be loved by you
I want to be loved, I want to be loved
I just want you to stay
Away from me
With all your lies
I just don't believe
So why did you come to me
When you knew that you just didn't believe
What did you expect to get from telling me
You don't understand
Anything or how I am
I just want to be loved
I just want to be loved by you
I want to be loved
I just want to be loved by you
I want to be loved, I want to be loved
You don't understand, you don't understand
You don't understand
I just want to be loved
I just want to be loved by you
I want to be loved
I just want to be loved by you
I want to be loved, I want to be loved
I want to be loved
I just want to loved by you |
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[Nov. 30th, 2005|11:42 am] |
Thanksgiving was awesome.
Texas was awesome.
All the people I met were awesome.
The food was awesome.
The flights were awesome.
The weather was awesome.
The Bux was awesome.
The movies were awesome.
Kittum was awesome.
This feeling in my heart is not so awesome.
Saturday morning hurt...more than I could ever relate to in words.
Sunday morning hurt...more than anything I have ever done.
Monday morning hurt...and each day after... |
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[Nov. 15th, 2005|01:36 am] |
| [ | music |
| | Deliver Me - Sarah Brightman | ] |
Deliver me, out of my sadness.
Deliver me, from all of the madness.
Deliver me, courage to guide me.
Deliver me, strength from inside me.
All of my life I've been in hiding.
Wishing there was someone just like you.
Now that you're here, now that I've found you,
I know that you're the one to pull me through.
Deliver me, loving and caring.
Deliver me, giving and sharing.
Deliver me, the cross that I'm bearing.
All of my life I was in hiding.
Wishing there was someone just like you.
Now that you're here, now that I've found you,
I know that you're the one to pull me through.
Deliver me,
Deliver me,
Oh deliver me.
All of my life I was in hiding.
Wishing there was someone just like you.
Now that you're here, now that I've found you,
I know that you're the one to pull me through.
Deliver me,
Oh deliver me.
Won't you deliver me |
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[Nov. 13th, 2005|12:16 am] |
It broke into pieces
It's like a work of glass
I'm gathering up pieces of my memory
You realize those important to you
After whenever you lose them
The world without you
Is just like a jigsaw puzzle
It's still eternally missing pieces and incomplete
Because it's impossible
For anyone to replace you
By the chain that's called "reality"
We are connected
Even though we aren't granted to dream
Nevertheless, we'll keep on searching
For the light that illuminates darkness
Please, please stop the time
And carve your silhouette onto my chest
It's okay even if I sacrificed everything
For that smiling face once more...
Once more...
Good Knight, stand alone once more... |
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[Nov. 12th, 2005|11:35 pm] |
GG Florida lost to South Car...No more SEC champ chance
What a nice night after all *sarcasm off*
When it rains...it pours |
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[Nov. 12th, 2005|11:09 pm] |
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| | Ready Steady GO! - FMA | ] |
Ty: It is still just a matter of perception vs. reality... Your heart perceives hope and blinds you from the truth... things have always been that way
Me: So you are telling me that I should stop hoping, you are advocating that to know the truth you can't trust your heart
Ty: Everyone hopes, I'm just saying don't let your hopes rule your life, you have to perceive reality without those rose-tinted glasses called your heart
Me: Thats kinda sad man, I don't think I could live like that :-/
Ty: Sad or realistic? One day, even with all that hope you have, you will wake up and still feel alone, and your heart won't be able to help you
Me: I lived ten years like that... what’s another ten :-P
Ty: Meh, it's your sanity, not mine o.O
Me: I have become quite proficient at hiding my feelings from the world, don’t worry about me ;)
Some people are really sad... Way to make me sad too :-/ |
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[Nov. 8th, 2005|02:55 am] |
Yeah...so there is this girl in my life who is completely amazing and I totally love her...three guesses who :-O
Thats all ^.^ |
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[Nov. 1st, 2005|06:15 pm] |
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Hi!
It's been a long time since I have posted on here, and I feel kinda awkward starting back up...mostly because I don't know what to say. Many things have been running through my head lately....lots of things.
I don't spend much time with Nick anymore, which makes me feel at a loss at who I am sometimes, seeing as he has been my best friend for the last 6 years, the one thats always there to be my best friend...so now I get to cling to newer people, like my brother, for support. It is sad to see all my childhood friends disappearing: Garrett is gone to Ohio, Mike is married, Nick gone, Keith wrapped up in his frat...it seems almost too much to swallow sometimes.
It is even more of a shock with John, Randy, and Ernie in their new apartment...I was so used to opening my door and having someone to just blab and waste time with, but thats gone now...
Then there is the love life thing...I don't even want to start on the craziness that has happened over the last few months...sigh
Alli stopped by last week, it was nice to see her... I miss the Apopka girls and our Pie and Risk parties...signs of better times I guess.
I miss Campbell, John, and Cliff too, yeah I said it, I actually miss Cliff...Blasphemy you might say o.O I might be inclined to agree with you in about an hour :-O
I really miss the Lees, Nick gets to hang out with them, but I haven't even got a hi from 'em in 3 months...maybe they disowned me :-/
I miss Dottie too...working at Halloween Horror Nights really takes it out of her though, and thats well understood.
In good news, I actually talk to Tanya..lol...I really have missed her...
Liz has been grounded so I haven't got to see as much of her as I would have liked either...
Bronwen is Miss Popularity now as well, I miss our random talks alot more than I would have thought >.< Georgia Peachs style :-(
There is alot missing from my life right now, so it seems, as stated by the comments above and ones not mentioned...ones that Josh and other know, but aren't exactly public knowledge... o.O
Being alone is getting very heavy... I am ready to stop being a flirtly lil bastard and settle down into a good, strong relationship I guess...who woulda guessed... |
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[Aug. 24th, 2005|09:23 pm] |
Happy Birthday To me....19 Years old and what do I have to show for it....Absolutely nothing but this shitty life and even shittier mentality.
Back to College...The worst thing about it is that I just spent the last few months with the best friends a guy could have in APK, only to come up and G-ville to miss them rediculously. My friends up here I missed while in APK, but without them in the rooms next door or across the street, I have little faith in this semester...little faith.
My heart hurts in ways no one can fix, and it makes me worry for the path ahead...woot |
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[Jun. 13th, 2005|02:14 pm] |
| [ | mood |
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| [ | music |
| | Daft Punk - One More Time | ] |
I was hanging out with Mike all day on Friday and it was one of the greatest times I have had in the last few weeks. I forgot what having your best friend around is like, as he lives in Texas now and is married, and in the Army. Although, when we walked around in the Airport picking up his dad and Joy, I felt like I was out of place, Joy's friends came with us to pick her up, and Mike and Melissa(Mike's wife) were there, I just felt like that chapter of life was gone, and I was sitting in one of those flashbacks like in TV. It was really good to see Mike again, and to hang out with joy of course :-P It was wild as usual, nice to see NSB hasn't changed, as I have.
The last few weeks being back in Apopka have been great, but it seems that I miss the Murph and such more and more as the days fly by. Summer, I think, is starting to lose it's appeal.
I recently caught up with Ian, one of the best friends I had when I was a kid, we were basically family. He has been traveling the Eastern Seaboard, from NJ to Philly to Tampa and back again, haha. Hopefully I will get to see him and chill before he leaves again for his adventures around the country.
In other news, Tanya leaves in a few days for Austrailia(Spelling is making me cry), Liz is working like 40 hours a week, Lesley and Sarah are still as rambouyant as ever(New word thanks), Haven't talked to Keith, Nick or Garrett, Bronwen has been tied to "Kaka Stef-E"'s hip, Krystal is out making Ninja movies and Walmart shopping, and I am sitting here feeling sorry for myself...Woost!
One more time... A song I haven't heard in a long time that Mike, Joy and I were rockin out to on the way to the park or to Traders or somewhere(I don't really remember....:-D)It was a good discription of the night's events, because I am sure I won't get to see Mr. Bennett for a good 6 months unless the Will of God changes the course of our lives. We don't stop, You can't stop...We gonna Celebrate, One more time!
Music's got me feeling so free... Celebrate and dance so free! One more time.....
One more time......... Until we meet again, but for now, we'll celebrate |
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[Jun. 6th, 2005|12:27 pm] |
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Its one of those days where everything feels like its pushing down on you and you just wanna run outside, eyes full of tears, and scream at the sky. And the only thing that can make you feel better is the feeling of your tears wetting your cheeks as they roll down into obscurity. |
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[May. 28th, 2005|10:25 am] |
QUESTION OF THE DAY: Is Woostamasauce really a word? And if it is, what does it mean?
Long week, went to the beach my with padre a few days, hung out with dottie, brother bear and campbell, talked to K-girl on the phone, talked to Mike about his two weeks on leave, and sleepies! ZzZz more later |
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[May. 17th, 2005|09:59 am] |
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LMFAO, I have a written journal, I am so Sebastian! |
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[May. 17th, 2005|09:48 am] |
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I'm still waiting.... |
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